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Secret Mission

Updated: 5.1.2018

This blog is to track action and progress, this secret page is to track my goals and the steps to get there, which will get their own, reflective blog posts. 

Name of Goal

WHAT?

Clearly explain what the goal is. Any additional information beyond a simple heading. These will be SMART goals, Simple (baby steps), Measurable (metrics), Attainable (metrics), Realistic (why & metrics) and Timely (metrics). This is where I will track my goals in a broad way, the blog will be tracking the habits, and reflecting on how I achieved the goals. As well as musings about the struggles of goals and habit building. These are all things that combine to living an intentional life. With a focus on things that bring joy, which is mostly not things.

Why?

  1. My big why(s), beginning with the end in mind (a la The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People) on each of these goals

baby steps? [habits]

  • Steps I am going to take to achieve this, including links to blog posts about it, or link to tags/categories about it for my own tracking
  • Not necessarily in order, won't necessarily do all of these things, but this is a list of things to review and potentially add as additional habits

METRICS?

  • How will I know that I have achieved the goal I have set out to achieve? What's the measurable outcome?

 

1. Declutter My Home (& Life)

what?

A house that is clean, everything has a place and everything is in its place. Stuff is set up in a way where it's easy to clear off tables, easy to keep bedding and clothing clean and organized. There are only things in my house that are useful and/or beautiful, things that bring me joy. 

WHY?

1. I am tired of only being aware of the extra weight I am carrying after I clean things up. I want to keep my home clean and tidy, with only things that bring me joy so that my stuff causes me less issues. 

2. I don't want to spend time maintaining my things, I want to spend time making things, being creative, and exploring and sending time with friends. 

3. I would like my house to always be guest-ready. So I could on a whim invite friends over to play board games without worrying where they will all sit and what my house looks like

4. SYNCHRONICITY This will overlap with my desire to not spend money (less desire for THINGS), as well as live an active life because there will be less stress about the stuff in my house and more time for the things that matter, like self care and puppy care. Having a home that is decluttered and only full of things that bring me joy will make it easier to travel and enjoy my home. 

BABY STEPS?

  • Sort through all my things to get the categories together, tossing things I know don't bring joy. [LINK - DATE]
  • Go through the items, Kon Marie style, category by category, touching every item and asking if it brings me joy. [LINK - DATE]
  • Hire landscapers to deal with the yard, because I can't handle it (Done, they started April 27th!)

METRICS?

  • Monthly check in, have base photographs to compare with for starters. 

  • Weekly action checklist of what I have gone through

  • Take photos of things I get rid of

 


2. Out of Debt w/ Emergency Fund

what?

Current Debts:
-$7,300 on a credit card (balance transfer, 15 months 0% APR)
-$2,365.42 I owe my mom and pay in $97.71 increments every month (at 3% interest)
-$138,000 house approx remaining on 15 year refinanced mortgage

Goal is to have $5k puppy emergency fund (aka "College Fund") and $10k personal emergency fund

WHY?

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1. When Felix got sick suddenly, I hated the feeling at the hospital that my decisions were based on money. If Howland gets sick, (or just gets old) I do not want to be stressing too much about finances when I want to take the best care of him that I can. I want to have the set amount I would spend on him in the bank so I'm not going into debt to take care of him. 

2. I am tired of picking up the ipeces of Past Kaydee's mistakes, spending my whole paycheck to pay off stuff I already bought/used up. I want to spend cash for things so that it's one and done. I'm not spending Future Kaydee's earnings before she has a say in what her spending ought to be.

3. I want to feel in control of my choices, and not afraid of the what ifs when it revolves around money. If something breaks, or I need to get home from a trip to attend a funeral or something... I don't want money to be the reason I can't do something that I would normally do.

4. SYNCHRONICITY  This overlaps with my desire to declutter because I will save money by buying less things, it overlaps with my desire to get my eating habits under control because eating homemade is cheaper than eating out, also eating homemade overlaps with creativity. As well as creativity and sewing I can make clothes with fabric I already have, and do creative projects to give as gifts (which have more meaning than something storebought anyway which is reaffirming living an intentional life). 

BABY STEPS?

  • Stop retirement withholding, follow Dave Ramsey baby steps. (done for May 2018 paycheck)
  • Focus on paying off AmEx card ($7300) [LINK - DATE]
  • Pay off mom debt
  • Save at least $100/mo even while paying off debts
  • Roll those amounts into savings once debts are paid
  • Eventually I would like to be able to give the gift of airfare for Erin and Rich to come visit me, that could be my reward for getting to emergency fund. 

METRICS?

  • Spreadsheet showing amounts paid and saved each month including deadlines [LINK-05.01.2018]

  • I would love to be ahead of time on this, when I achieve each goal in red though, my friend KC is gonna make me chocolate pudding :D [LINK]


3. Deal with my Emotional Eating Situation (i.e. lose ~60 pounds)

WHAT?

Looking back, when I lived in NYC I maintained my weight pretty well through an active life (walking everywhere, all the stairs in the subway) and generally eating pretty intuitively with a few bad habits. Fast forward to today over the past 6 years living in Salem I have become less active, and I have developed some emotional eating coping strategies that are clearly not working for me. 

why?

  1. I do not feel good in my body, even movement that used to feel good doesn't anymore. I'm not flexible and it causes issues just trying to live my life. 
  2. I want to fit into the clothing styles and brands that I like. Sure maybe they should make bigger sizes, but, they don't. It is what it is. I would like to be healthier so really it's a win win. 
  3. When I am fit, I get more joy out of things like backpacking or snowboarding. I feel exhausted and beat the next day but in a great "I-used-my-body-to-do-things" kind of way. As opposed to what it's been lately which is "I used my body for a second and I feel like I'm dying"
  4. I want to have a healthy relationship with food again. One in which I am not stressed about food, can enjoy it and also am in better touch with myself. 
  5. SYNCHRONICITY Will work with my active lifestyle, losing weight and making clothes, as well as creatively cooking at home. 

baby steps?

  • Develop gym habit [LINK - DATE]
  • Select an exercise program to follow (once I have developed a habit) [LINK - DATE]
  • Eat homemade as much as possible, no foods off limits just eat homemade... sweets, lattes, breads, roasted meat and veggies, pasta... [LINK - DATE]
  • Bike to the grocery store [LINK - DATE]
  • Try the Fab4 smoothies and Fab4 meal approach, filling, works with hunger hormones [LINK - DATE]

METRICS?

  • Finish Reading Intuitive Eating and Healthy at Every Size [LINK - DATE]
  • Track homemade meals each week, just homemade vs store bought [LINK - DATE]
  • Weight and measurements. Prefer bod pod, $5 per use, body fat % [LINK - DATE]
  • Track speed and feelings doing a 5k run on the treadmill [LINK - DATE]
  • Track how much I can bench/squat/dead lift [LINK - DATE]

4. Develop a Daily Habit of Creativity

WHAT

 Daily creative practice, preferably about the same time of day, and more time on weekends. Writing counts but more interested in fine and crafty arts: painting, calligraphy, weaving, sewing (clothes and quilts and useful items). Also includes creative cooking (all that requires is that i feel that I was creative about it, might be in presentation, in making a recipe of my own or in the details of how I made it).

WHY?

  1. I really like my job but it's not as creative as what I used to do at JHA and in school, and I'm tired of feeling like the washed out high school star footballer. I need to be actively creative now, and I do not get to do it at work in the way that I want, and that's not going to change unless I move somewhere else but if I don't work those design muscles then I won't be able to find a job or even know what to do if I got a client!
  2. I want to feel like I am being creative and crafty.
  3. SYNCHRONICITY Creative challenges will include using materials I already have, and coming up with gifts for people that will save money on buying things. The more I work on my creativity, the more opportunities to use it will come up. Could lead me to a new career path after a big trip before deciding on a new place to settle. 
  4. Being creative ties in with being in touch with myself in order to creatively express myself. I don't know what my style is or my preferred medium, this is a chance to get to know myself better and I can explore with with intentionality. 

BABY STEPS?

  • PRIORITY Decluttering and get shed set up to be work space, tools and equipment on shelf and desk space [LINK - DATE]
  • Do a sketch everyday with a 30 day challenge, something like the letter a day. [LINK - DATE]
  • Sew a collection of pouches [LINK - DATE]
  • Do Skillshare classes and actually do the homework, post on the site for feedback, then blog about the process and show my images in all the steps [LINK - DATE]
  • Self-portrait challenge (30 days, 30 self-portraits) [LINK - DATE]
  • Studio Sundays, set aside the day to work on creative projects [LINK - DATE]

METRICS?

  • Share gallery of images [LINK - DATE]
  • Make and wear clothes as part of my wardrobe [LINK - DATE]
  • Figure out gifts to make for upcoming birthdays/holidays [LINK - DATE]
  • PRIORITY Before and after photos of shed setup [LINK - DATE]

5. Develop Active Habits

WHAT

Activity as part of my everyday, not just big activities. Choosing the active thing like taking the stairs always. Being ready to do something active at a moment's notice. 

WHY?

  1. I want to be able to go snowboarding or walk all day in NYC without being exhausted for days afterwards. 
  2. I want to use my body, if you don't use it you lose it... I don't want to be a weak frail old woman. I remember seeing Grandma Kreitlow, she got old and wasn't doing much, could barely move. Dad was healthy until whatever this is hit him... being healthy will help prevent preventable diseases.
  3. With a desk job, I need to be active as much as possible the rest of the time to make up for the sedentary life. 
  4. SYNCHRONICITY being active will lead to weight stabliization and more intuition and connection to my body

BABY STEPS?

  • Stop driving car except to out of town (use e-bike or walk) [LINK - DATE]
  • Take Howland on longer walks in the morning and evenings, even in the dark (get in touch with what my issues are and find a way to work around them and make it happen.)

METRICS?

  • Use Fitbit to track steps every week, set goals, start low and incrementally increase [LINK - DATE]
  • Action journal, track activities
  • Track how many trips I take in a week and what mode of trasportation I use

6.Explore the World

WHAT

Travel, near and far. New parts of the coast, bring Howland and leave him. Short term day trips and long weekends and month long trips. Possibly even longer depending on career and finances (could be a way to transition between)

WHY?

  1. I want to see the beautiful parts of the world, natural and manmade
  2. Memento Mori, I only get one life, and there is a whole world out there that I haven't seen, I do not want to live a small life in this small town. I like it for day to day living but I will regret it at the end of my life if I was not at least making a realistic plan and effort to go see the places in the world that inspire me. 
  3. I wouldn't regret exploring more places, but would regret spending that money on stuff when it could have been on experiences. 
  4. Perhaps there are opportunities where I can help people with architecture in other countries
  5. SYNCHRONICITY Decluttering my life will make it easier to leave behind and relax when I am traveling because I will have fewer things to worry about. Owning less stuff will make it easier to move when the time comes. Living with traveling as my intention gives me reasons to get all the other things done. Being fit will make travel more enjoyable because I will be able to hike, to haul my bag, and to climb hills to Manchu Pichu or a walk up hotel. Living with less at home will prepare me for living with less and making do on the road. Focusing on experiences over things is how I prefer to travel as well so it is preparing me for that. 

BABY STEPS?

  • Save money in specific account for this purpose
  • Explore destinations
  • Explore opportunities for places to go (conferences I could go and combine with a  work thing? Specific events or shows I would like to see that happen at a certain time of year or one time events)
  • Research

METRICS?

  • Amount of vacation time/ timing/ who wants to go/ who I want to come along
  • List of specific destinations with landmarks to see as well as a prioritized list of specific destinations, how long I think I will want to stay there and a detailed budget for each location